Saturday, May 19, 2007

How do I make him feel better?

This was a tough one…for both of us. My sweet boy had all eyes on him and the pressure got the best of him. Oh how I wish I could have made it all better. He tried so hard and I was beyond proud but to him it was less than perfection. As the players began “walking” to 1st base the tears began to fall from his little face and my heart just sank. Fifty-Seven pitches and 5 runs. He was devastated. His very 1st time pitching and Don and I couldn’t have been prouder but to Austin it was pure failure. It didn’t matter to him how many strikes he threw. In his mind, he and he alone, lost the game. Sometimes I think he carries the weight of the world on those little tiny shoulders. What have I done? Have I created a son who is so worried about pleasing everyone that he can’t see how truly amazing he really is? Am I helping him to succeed or setting him up for failure? Is he building character or doubting his abilities? So many questions..I don’t have answers. Unfortunately only time will tell. I knew parenting was going to be tough but these two little miracles-my purpose-are making me question my every move. Yes to me they are mine and they are PERFECT but how can I just let them know that no matter what just being who they are meant to be will always be good enough for me.

I need to stop thinking…..maybe my miracle and I are even more alike than I thought.








Keep your head up sweet boy...it'll get easier. I promise.

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

A Ride Back in Time

Grandpa came and took the boys for a ride in his Model A. They had a great time and Austin loved sitting in the "rumble " seat but I was a nervous wreck with NO seatbelts! It was a great treat and Jake especially loved the horn. Thanks Grandpa for an AWESOME afternoon!








Tuesday, May 8, 2007

A bunch of firsts...

Yep no doubt the boys are busy and even the husband is in on this one. It's a good thing. The weather is warm and it's time to get busy. No time to waste for there is learning to be done and in true Paterson style no better time than the present. I had several reasons to smile today for they were full of accomplishments. Truly inspiring stuff :)




Daddy had the help of a little grass eater and..



I finally got my pond!!






Austin built a fort...



of course with the support of the girls watching!



And well Jake learned to drink from a cup..


Sortof

Can it get any better?





My Amazing Boys

This is the beginning of my blog. It is a place for family and friends to watch as my two miracles grow into the most amazing young men.